Sometimes,
even when i'm surrounded by people
all i do, is think about you.
No, its not voluntary
it just so happens that my mind- even after trying to train it to do so otherwise- just keep reeling back to you.
What are you doing? are u telling her the same things you told me. do you think of her the same way, you thought about me.
do you'll talk about me
or am i not even a piece of your sub-conscience mind?
but the worst is- did you love me when u say u did?
and what, what in the God name happened for you to leave me?
just being next to someone who loved me.
i miss those. i miss the togetherness.
this is what i am left with now. empty hugs. furry hugs.
i remember thinking,
and that those three words,
will always be by my side.
but guess what?
i was wrong.
fool, i know.
but i did. i do.
and sometimes i just want to scream out
please.
and,
and what i really would like,
but then, reality sucks.
he is there. with her, the bitch.
and i am here, alone.
But,
Goddamit. we did.
how soon did u forget?
i wish you'd listen, this one time.
But if someone asked me to tick the box
i wouldnt know which to mark.
I think i need some happy pills
i wish there was somebody-
someone to love,
someone to kiss me,
someone to remind me that life is good.
someone to like me for who i am
and to show me the world is a shiny place
and to remind me that this:
is true.
someone to,
this is true; also.
He is dead. i know.
im holding on to a skeleton of what was before.
no flesh.
no heart.
no love.
zilch.
nothing.
im waiting. for someone
to show me what i know he can't.
love
security
happiness.
when will that come?
Soon?
i hope.
someone to hold on to
till infinity.
no, not beyond.
he said that- and beyond lasted for just two years.
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