come kiss me coz i'm beautiful

I know

It’s killing you

That finally

I’m learning to live  ;)

Things go from good to bad, and bad to worse- just like that.

tired; that's what i am.
and fed up.



give up?

That was yesterday;

and the day before,

and the day before that,

and the day before that till last Friday.

Shitfuckingholeofalife?

Shit happens.

(like all the frigging time!)

I am not a word.
I am not a line.
I am not a girl that can ever be defined.

- Nicki Minaj-

                                                       you turn into a lot of gooey things inside. ;)

Memories suck. 

they cling to you like a fucking leech.

 i don't want to make any with you if i know that's all i'm going to have left.

when you leave,

just like everyone else.

:)

so either- don't leave or don't give me any memories.

the choice; is yours. 

You said, i had brown eyes-

how did you know i've always wanted a man to notice that?

You.Make.Me.Smile.

:)

Confidence

Truth

Drowning

Drown myself
in your words
in your smiles
in your hugs
in your kisses
in your eyes
in your heartbeat

i want to drown myself
in the warmth of you
the comfort of your arms
the kindness in your eyes
and the sweetness of your lips

a step back
and im drowning-
drowning in your lies
in your mask
in a field of sorrow
hurt,
anger
and pain.

i'm drowning
in the world you and i created
with loving care,
considerable patience
and soothing words.

im drowning
and my Saviour-
correction; used to be saviour-
he is walking away
his arms tucked underneath her's
in an effortless motion
much like-
what you and i had,
arms tucked in
fingers brushing
lips kissing
hearts beating.

but no;
im drowning
and yet he,
he walks away.

there no backward glance.

Part of me got tangled with a part of you.
and now that your gone, you took away a part of me with you.
and all i'm left is with half of me- and a little bit of you.

i want a man who'll hold my hand, pat my head, laugh out loud, do mad things together and then settle in to have deep but meaningless conversations about life, death and old age.