Drowning

Drown myself
in your words
in your smiles
in your hugs
in your kisses
in your eyes
in your heartbeat

i want to drown myself
in the warmth of you
the comfort of your arms
the kindness in your eyes
and the sweetness of your lips

a step back
and im drowning-
drowning in your lies
in your mask
in a field of sorrow
hurt,
anger
and pain.

i'm drowning
in the world you and i created
with loving care,
considerable patience
and soothing words.

im drowning
and my Saviour-
correction; used to be saviour-
he is walking away
his arms tucked underneath her's
in an effortless motion
much like-
what you and i had,
arms tucked in
fingers brushing
lips kissing
hearts beating.

but no;
im drowning
and yet he,
he walks away.

there no backward glance.