cold

it scares me

how detached i can be

at times

and at other times

be so emotional involved

and 

how easy it is for me to

switch between the two

always to the extreme

nothing in between.

it scares me

how cold i can be

how unfeeling

how third-party-like

i can be

looking at my life 

from a distance.

what did you do

to harden up the ice in my heart

that noone can seem to thaw-

try as they might

they would only be too wary

and leave,

like everyone else.

it baffles me

how people leave

saying

either im too emotional

or im too unemotional.

i am human

am i not?

surreal
de-stress
great
amazing

these words have lost its meaning-
now.


how you made me smile-
like a jackass,
then.
stupid, stupid me.

kiss

If,

i close my eyes

and will my self to remember-

it doesnt take much time

for me to remember,

how your tongue felt

playing tag with mine;

how your your lips felt

crushed to mine,

how your fingers felt

tugging my hair,

how i felt

when you-

held my face between your palms

and kissed me-

kissed the raindrops 

and the salty sea

away.

how you make me hunger for just those kisses-

really, its a sad life-

mine-

without those kisses

to numb my memories away.

In hindsight
if truth be told
noone can kiss the way you do.
noone can make me as comfortable
as you do
kissing me.
lip to lip
eyes closed
its easy to imagine
the whole world on my palm.

if you have a problem with me
tell me to the face
without hiding your's
behind other's backs
cussing me for lies.

you say i'm a slut
but you don't know.
you say's i'm a bitch
and yet you don't know.
i don't call you anything-
but i know;
and so does all the others you fucked around with.

the so called promise, is yet again broken.
when will u learn not to say what you can't give?
don't make me expect things i never wanted
only to snatch it away- just like that.

chance

you didn't see
the tears falling down
teeth biting lip
the agony in my eyes
when you just walked away-
even though,
that is exactly what i wanted:

give me a chance to make you happy
take a chance on me
and see where it ends.