Truth

Drowning

Drown myself
in your words
in your smiles
in your hugs
in your kisses
in your eyes
in your heartbeat

i want to drown myself
in the warmth of you
the comfort of your arms
the kindness in your eyes
and the sweetness of your lips

a step back
and im drowning-
drowning in your lies
in your mask
in a field of sorrow
hurt,
anger
and pain.

i'm drowning
in the world you and i created
with loving care,
considerable patience
and soothing words.

im drowning
and my Saviour-
correction; used to be saviour-
he is walking away
his arms tucked underneath her's
in an effortless motion
much like-
what you and i had,
arms tucked in
fingers brushing
lips kissing
hearts beating.

but no;
im drowning
and yet he,
he walks away.

there no backward glance.

Part of me got tangled with a part of you.
and now that your gone, you took away a part of me with you.
and all i'm left is with half of me- and a little bit of you.

i want a man who'll hold my hand, pat my head, laugh out loud, do mad things together and then settle in to have deep but meaningless conversations about life, death and old age.

What a joke!

Funny how you and I

spent so much of time together;

Laughed,

until we cried

Cried,

until we laughed

Hugged,

until it hurt

Kissed

until we couldn’t breathe.

Funny,

that now since you and i are no more

all u remember

are the dark days, 

the rainy days,

the wicked things,

the rude things.

Funny,

How for you

I was a temporary rainbow

while for me,

you were all the beautiful colours put together.

Funny

how today

a grey shadow has formed at its edges

making its way to its core.

Funny,

how for you

it was just so easy

to toss me away

just like that.

While for me,

even after all this-

you remain a part of me.

Funny-

how I thought you loved me

when in reality

it was all just a one way run.

Funny, in'it?

Dragon slayer

I would have fought all your battles for you

Slain all the dragons for you

I would have laid down my life for you

But you,

You chose to walk away.

fuckwitt.

not you- 

             me, for thinking you would change.