Tell me

It's not that I don't love you baby
but it's because I do
I don't want you to be unhappy, my baby
not in this life, it's true.

will we continue this facade?
driving each other insane
or will we end this now
and remain friends- in a true and lasting blend

or if we do commence
when will we finally end
the anger
the hurt
the pain
the sorrow
the madness
we inflict upon each other.

I don't know baby, even if i want to
if things will change or continue the same.
if both our egos- so big and so fine
can survive each others threats

I don't know baby, i really don't
if this is healthy or if this is cold
but i don't want us to hate each other
once this thread of love snaps break

baby, i don't know if i can take it
i don't really know
if the words you keep hauling
will ever stop and cure
if the blows you keep sending
will finally all subside
or if with time and anger only multiply

i'm not a loser baby, nor am i a fool
i'm not helpless even if you think i do
i have so many years ahead of me darling
but will it all matter
if each day you keep killing me
with your words, glances and hate.

I'm only twenty one my darling
i'm only twenty one
a baby, in so many's world
an infant in disguise

but with you i feel like i've lived long enough
to see what i have seen
to be where i have been- to hell and heaven and back.

i don't want to feel like that my darling
i don't want to feel like this
i want to live my life, my baby
with happiness, love and bliss

but can you give me that, my baby
can you give me this
can you change your ways, my sweetheart
and help me with this shit

can you help me build my life
with happiness, love and trust
or will you continue breaking it
like you break my heart

will the change you want me to see
be limited only to the mind
and if when reality hits
you'll be by my side

will those angry words be traded
for the loving words i adore
will the hands that slaps me wash away
the pain that i go through
will you hold me true, my darling
and tell me if all this is true
or will we go on just the same
till you
or I
finally decides
that death is way overdue.